Tuesday, November 1, 2011

Marco

Marco 03/05/1995 - 10/28/2011




I watched Marco be born on March 5, 1995. He was a cute chubby little kitten. 
No one wanted him because he was so fluffy, and because he had a gray mark on his head. 
As if someone dipped their finger in paint and dabbed it on his head. 

My parents told me I could keep him if I wanted and I did. 
Marco was my kitty, not the family cat, but mine! 
He grew and was quite large. 

He suited me perfectly. 
We would stay in my bedroom lay on my bed and watch TV. 
He layed next to me, or at my feet. 
He slept on my baby pillow. 

When Hurricane Ike hit and my family had to split up, Marco came with me. 
He loved Fiance, but... living with him... 
Marco would leave when Fiance would come in the room and come back when Fiance left. 
A little jealousy I think. 



In May of 2009 Marco was diagnosed with Feline Diabetes. 
I thought I was losing my baby boy. The vet said it was a death sentence, 
he said I needed to put him to sleep. 
I cried for days, how can I lose my little man. 
What did I do wrong? 
How does a cat get diabetes?

Then Fiance found FelineDiabetes.com
He told me he was reading on their forum that it wasn't a death sentence. 
So one early morning I sat down, and poured my heart out to them. 
I was scared, and I didn't want to lose my little man.

They held my hand, they told me this wasn't a big deal. IT IS treatable. 
They told me to change his diet to a low card wet food diet. 
Done, it brought his numbers from almost 600 to around 200. 
Holy crap! They told me to find a new vet. 
Done. Then I found a specialist.



The ladies from FDMB helped me so much. They explained everything to me. 
Taught me how to home test Marco's blood sugar & understand it. 
Helped me changed my cats dose, because ECID (every cat is different),
helped me when I was scared and didn't want my cat to go too low.
I developed a new type of bond with Marco, and I felt I understood him more. 
Fiance developed a relationship with Marco during our sugar dance. 
This made my heart oh so happy. 

We developed routines, and learn so much about feline health. 
Who knew!?

Marco went off of insulin, something his vets didn't think would happen. 
They looked at my logs and said Marco's treatment and response to insulin was exactly 
how they learned it should be in school! They had never seen that. 
I let them know it was all thanks to FDMB.

Marco came with us to our new home last October, 
he quickly claimed his spots in the house. Mostly the couch! 
If we have guests over he wanted to know who and why people are in his spot....
He helped me put up groceries, I'd have to pull out the drawers so the fridge door wouldn't smash him.
We bought him lifted bowls so that in his old age he wouldn't have to bend down so low.
Every morning he'd wake up, and we'd have our daily conversation as I'd prepare
his breakfast bowl. Then we'd go into the guest bathroom where he would lay 
on the bathmat while I would get ready for work. 



Last Friday I woke up expecting to start my day as normal. 
...but Marco didn't come to greet me. 
He had a rough night because there was poo in the living room.
He was laying in the dining room... 
I went to pet him, which would usually get him to pop up and start chatting...
he didn't get up. He didn't blink... 
Then I realized he was laying in his own feces.

I woke up Fiance and told him something was really wrong. 
Marco isn't getting up. 
Marco's breathing was shallow and I layed my head on him, his heart rate was rapid. 
My little man wasn't getting up at all and I could tell he wasn't feeling very well. 

Fiance told me "honey, I think he's going"
My heart broke. I called the emergency vet clinic. 
I hoped they would tell me, "oh he's just got a tummy ache" or something simple. 

Instead it was, "something is very wrong here, something big, it's not his diabetes"
I spoke with the vet, told him I love my Marco but the most important thing is his quality of life. 
I don't want to put him through test after test, only to PTS, or to buy him a couple miserable months. 
We talked, Fiance and I thought.... and we knew Marco was ready to go. 
I knew I had made the right decision when the brought Marco back to me and he was basically lifeless. 

My little man... he didn't even look like the Marco I knew....
He looked so helpless, so miserable, so ready...
I couldn't let him suffer.

We helped Marco cross over at 730am 10/28/11.
We petted him, told him we loved him, and told him he'd get to be with his Mom again.
He would be pain free, diabetes free, and could run and play like a kitten again.
We covered him in his blanky, and let him know we were there as the vet pushed the 
medications to put him to sleep forever.


Fly free Marco, and land softly.
I know your Mom, MK, is there with you, along with all
of your friends from Lantus Land...
Come visit me from time to time...
I miss you so much already,
until we meet again sweet boy.
Kisses, and scritches for you.


Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge. There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together. There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor. Those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by. The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.
They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent. His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....


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A huge thank you to those of you who sent me tweets, DMs, texts, and emails to check on me.
You have no idea how much that meant to me! 
To some, animals are just animals. For me, for us, our cats are a part of our family. 
They are our furkids!





25 comments:

  1. I literally just cried, sitting at my desk at work, reading this. My husband and I lost our first cat together just a month after we were married, and like Marco, it was sudden. I will always be saddened by the thought of my first baby, Zeppelin, but I know that he's always with me, and I honestly believe that HE is the one that sent Autumn, Einstein, and most recently Bandit to come find us, because he told them that we were good people and we'd take care of them. If I can do anything to help you, please let me know.

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  2. oh goodness this just made me tear up!! i lost my first cat a few years ago, and it still makes me so sad.
    marco is a beautiful cat!

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  3. I cried reading this. I'm so sorry you had lose your first baby. He's in such a good place now and he's hanging out with all of my fur friends that have crossed and his mommma and they're having a giant party with tons of food and no worries. :) Big hugs and lots of love to you from my fur-kids Leo and Gabby (the dog that thinks he's a cat and the dog who thinks all cats are her friend). :)

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  4. I'm sorry you had to lose your sweet boy. You're a great fur mommy and took care of him when others would have given up. *BIG HUGS* to you today.

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  5. I'm so sorry honey! No words are enough, just big HUGS to you!

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  6. Hugs to you, friend! He is in kitty heaven with my kitty Frisky who passed away last year! xo

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  7. OMG I'm crying here at school. My kids think I'm insane. What an incredibly sad story and I know Marco is happy again. HUGS HUGS HUGS

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  8. OMG... celia i am bawling. Such a sweet post. Animals are sometimes harder to lose then people bc they give unconditional love. I'm so sorry. I think Marco was probably in pain and is now in a better place. Love you! xoxo

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  9. This just made me cry. I am so sorry for your loss, but I'm so glad he's not in pain anymore! You were a wonderful momma to him!

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  10. I'm so sorry for your loss! I got teary eyed just reading this! Sending you lots and lots of hugs!!

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  11. I am so sorry you've lost your baby. I'm definitely crying too; my dog and baby are looking at me like I've lost it. It's a hard hard thing. He's at peace and waiting patiently to see you one day *hugs*

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  12. how sad...i am so sorry...my family cat just was put to sleep a few weeks ago when she was really sick.

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  13. I'm bawling. :-( Your post made me think of the pets I've lost and I wish I could give you a big ol' hug and we could cry together. But I'll just offer a big ol' virtual hug and let you know that I'm here for you. *hugs*

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  14. I have been where you are and it never gets easier and the pain does subside.
    I'm here for you if you need a friend and I hope you know that he isn't suffering at all now which is the best thing

    Love you lots Celia

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  15. I probably should have waiting till I got home to read this because I'm sitting at my desk at work trying with all my might not to cry. This breaks my heart and I'm so sorry. I've had cats for most of my life and know exactly what you are going through. We had to put two of our cats down at the same time (they were both old and sick and wouldn't survive without each other) and the house felt so empty without them.

    The part at the end about the Rainbow Bridge is amazing though. I believe with all my heart that there is a special place in heaven for our pets and once we die they will be the first to greet us.

    Thank you for sharing your story. Sending thoughts and prayers your way.

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  16. I’m so sorry to hear about Marco. Your post had the tears welling up in my eyes. I cannot even begin to imagine how hard that must have been for you. Stay strong girl!

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  17. Oh honey I'm so sorry. This post just made me cry! He had a wonderful and long life with you and will always be with you! I've had so many animals in my life and parting with them is the hardest thing to do. I have two pups and I can't even imagine my life without them. I know one day I'll have to let them go, but I'll know I gave them the best life I could. I'm so sorry for your loss hun. I didn't see it on twitter or I def would have sent you some words of love and encouragement. Hang in there!

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  18. I love you Celia! I know it is hard for you and Mychael, but Marco is in a better place and not suffering. I've never lost a pet before and I just can not imagine what you're going through. I sat here and just boo hooed reading this because I think about what it would be like to lose Mr. Cotton or one of my 2 girls. Please know I'm thinking about y'all and Marco :)

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  19. Aw girl I am sitting here in tears. That is SO hard. What a sweet kitty. I hope you can stay strong and take comfort in the fact that Marco is no longer sick and is waiting for you.

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  20. First time visitor here and I'm crying. Reminds me to take time for my two doggies every day and make their little lives with me happy.

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  21. I'm here in tears for you. I know the heartbreak of letting your little fur-child go to heaven.

    Know that YOU were the person he needed, YOU were the one he loved the most and you WILL see him again.

    (((HUGS)))

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  22. I am crying as I'm sitting here reading your post! I am SO sorry to hear about your loss. I got a kitten when I was in the 1st grade and she still lives with my parents and is 15 years old. I have the came connection with her as you did with Marco, and I dread the day I have to say goodbye... I know it will be hardest thing I'll ever do. Stay strong!

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  23. So heartbreaking! We tweeted briefly about your Marco and I told you about our little Guinea Pig that also died last week. I love that you say "we helped him cross over" and not bluntly "we put him down", which sounds so brutal. If you really love (either a human or a pet), you are also prepared to let go if the other suffers.
    No matter the pain ...

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  24. This made me cry. I am so very sorry for your loss, Celia! I understand where you're coming from completely, and I can only imagine the pain you are going through right now. Pets are such a BLESSING from God. They change our lives forever. You had sweet Marco for 16 years! That is just AMAZING. He lived a wonderful life.

    I am praying for you sweet girl. I am so so sorry.

    xoxoxo.

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  25. I'm a little late to this post but it broke my heart all the same. I'm so sorry that you lost Marco, he sounds so much like my Manhattan.

    You're definitely in my thoughts as you try and heal.

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