Hello my dears! It's the 1st edition of Blogger's Biggest Loser!
I have been looking for a way to keep myself accountable with my fitness goals, this is perfect! I have to confess to all of you I am super nervous. I am the biggest I have ever been in my life.
I am upset with myself on a daily basis right now. I am to the point that when I eat, I feel extreme guilt. This is not healthy. I have had meltdowns in the last couple weeks because I am so unhappy with my current weight and overall look of my body.
Let's give you a little background. I'm 5' 3&1/2" ... the half counts...all through high school I weighed about 90-95lbs and was between a 00 and 1 jeans. I always tried to gain weight and it just didn't work. I ate like crap, hello soda and pint of icecream for lunch. I could never gain weight. Oh & throw in the fact that I had modeled for about a year, all I heard was I could not go over 100lbs. I knew this was not healthy at all. Needless to say, I dropped modeling.
Then after high school I finally gained weight, I stayed around 110-115lbs and was in size 5-7 jeans. I was pretty happy with this, I looked a lot healthier.
At around 25 I went through another little weight gain and stayed between 115-120lbs. I stayed in size 7 jeans. Okay with me. I started working out at a gym with a personal trainer. My reasoning? I hear that as you get closer to your 30's you start to gain more weight and its harder to keep it off. If I decide to have children I want to make sure that I can bounce back to my prebaby body, I hear it's easier if you are fit before hand. Of course my Pops having health problems in his mid 30's was another reason.
Now, I am 27... and I am at 144lbs. I would be totally okay with this if I had been working out hardcore...but this is all fatty weight. I am in size 11 jeans and even those are starting to be way too tight. My size 8 dress pants barely close... I am not okay with being a 10. Typically if I don't like the weight I am at I just change my diet, and wa-la my weight drops. This time... it's not working. I worked with a personal trainer at my new gym and he told me I was borderline overweight. le sigh.
I can't help it, I am one of those people where looks do matter to me!
- go to the gym at least 3 times a week. 30mins cardio, 30mins weights.
- get out of the 140's... I would be okay with 130lbs.
- flat stomach, sculpted arms, back, and legs.
- No fast food for the month of January.
What are your fitness goals?
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