|My husband and I|
I'm in a season of my life that I never expected to be in 2 years ago, when I married my husband. Or 6 years ago, when I first met him. Or 11 years ago, as I was heading into my last semester in high school. For better or for worse, this is where I am now.
For better or for worse, I'm working part time, in a job I love that isn't exactly in my field (although it's a lot closer than when I was working in an office last year).
When we first got married, I thought we'd be talking about having a kid after our second anniversary, and start a family soon after that anniversary. Well, we just hit 2 1/2 years and though we did have that discussion, neither of us feels that we are ready, for various reasons.
When I graduated with a Masters in Library and Information Science 2 1/2 years ago, I thought I'd be working as a children's librarian in a public library by now. For better or for worse, I'm working with kids, but not in a library setting.
There are so many things that I could be discontent about in my life right now. I'm not living the life I thought I'd be living by now. But you know what? That's OK. I'm learning to be content with the season of life I'm in. It's not perfect, but it's my life.
So, I go to work every day and smile because the kids make me happy. I wake up every morning next to my husband and smile because we have this time together, just the two of us. I sit on my Freecycle couch instead of the recliners that I thought we would have by now, and I'm thankful that we at least have a couch to sit on.
The truth is, I'm incredibly blessed, even if I'm not living the life that I always thought I would be. I'm learning to be content in what I have, and not comparing myself to others. It can be a struggle, but then I remind myself that I will never have these years back. I know in 10 years, I will look back on this season of my life and be glad I experienced everything I did. It isn't always what I want, but it's my life, and I'm learning to love it, and myself, just the way I am.